Speaking of not knowing..

I have no idea what's going on.... I know he'll be gone soon.... And i'll be left with the memory and what if's.... The ones that will drive you crazy.....

Lauryn Hill

I promise no album will ever touch me like the miseducation of lauryn hill..... Exfactor is definitely one of the best songs ever.... It's just so beautifully written.... And true.... "When I try to walk away you hurt yourself to make me stay, this is crazy"...... No crazy ex's in my life at the moment.... Sometimes you just have to appreciate feelings you've had in the past.... Music is like a time machine, a memory spark and a heart repair machine.... It just soothed and comforts.... For example.... John Legend speaks to my soul with "everybody knows"..... Because he's so real about it.... Nobody really knows....

Nodding off....

That always sounds like something your supposed to not talk about... Like something lewd and dirty... LOL anyways today was pretty cool..... Lunch date with my friend.... Then I totally got stood up by a different guy... I guess that's why I'm not good at patience... Oh well... It's all good... I kinda wanna let him slide because our outing Monday was so fantastic I couldn't have asked for a better evening....  He was sweet, and funny... Affectionate and silly... All those things that you really want in a guy... All wrapped up in a very handsome package...
And stamped with a cinderella-esque expiration date... No he's not turning into a pumpkin... He's just gonna be so far.... I mean I've always been really good at the long distance thing but it has to be built before you put the distance in....
So what to do now?
Get what you ask for.... Then you gotta figure out how to deal.... Smdh... And I was thinking to myself why now? With all these passed opportunities.... Well it just wasn't the right time... If I had any knowledge of what I know now, back then.... I would have messed it all up.... And everytime after that i had too much going on.... And I still do... But the difference is that I'm at the point in my life where I'm willing to put in time and effort to work on and develop me.... And the potential for "us".... I guess we'll just have to wait and see.... Still kinda disappointed I got stood up.... :(