Christmas stuff

Merry Christmas to me..... Can u be down on one knee? Am I asking too much? I'll settle for near.... Kind of lonely over here.... Witnessing love all around.... Where kisses abound.... Enough to cause tears behind hidden fears... So i'll smile and play nice and absorb all advice "love comes when your not looking" "men love a woman's cooking" and deep down inside i take it in stride... Without him by my side wanting hearts to collide.... Charcoals and paper, drawing from memories that taper.... They won't fade away, no matter how much I pray.... And smile and give thanks on this Christmas Day.

tis the season...

yeah I took a hiatus from blogging... work is pretty cool.... my birthday is around the corner... finished the majority of my christmas shopping... had a blast shopping for my honey... man, i can't even lie, it sucks without him here... so many little things I'd love for him to be around for.... i just love this time of year... he asked what I wanted for christmas... realistically I just want to cuddle on the couch with him and watch A Christmas Story and just be near him...

that's all i really want.... :)

New Job

Got an awesome new job... It's a contract job so I hope it lasts a little while. :) had a really cool first day and then got to talk to my honey. He's so great. I was so sad to hear he got some really bad news and it amazes me how he holds things together until he's ready to deal. That strength is truly amazing. He made me laugh.... Quite a few times... Very hard. He makes me laugh and glow while he's dealing with some real hard stuff. How lucky am I to have a man like that in my life? I miss him terribly. Good days bad days blah days they all feel weird.... I just want to lay my head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat and his voice from there.... Where I felt like there was only us two on earth.... :) prayers for his family.... And him.... XOXO
Be good to each other... Love.