first dates.....

they're always full of anxiety and observation... I hate movies as first dates because I feel like it doesn't give you a chance to talk or get to know someone. but this was kind of different. it was like the perfect balance of small talk and just experiencing something together. (something being the movie) the gentleman was just that- a gentleman. rushing to open doors, polite, funny and just a sweetie... which is good. glad to see that guys like that still exist; that gives me hope. got a lot to do tomorrow.... none of it is what i want to do... but gotta get it done. back to work on Thursday... both jobs.... so i'll be exhausted and that's always good at least I'll be making some money...

have this huge trip coming up and I just can't wait.... but gotta stack some paper first!! :) new orleans isn't ready!!! kinda bummed about not having a date for the wedding but i guess it happens.... *sigh* oh well...

everything happens for a reason.

drowning....

I keep looking up at the situation that I got myself into. I know what's best for everyone... but then I know what I really want..... I guess I'll learn sooner or later

I just don't know if this is a sign or a whole life alteration.... or... I dunno.... but I care enough about my friend to make a decision based on what's best for him... and not just go off my feelings... oh so much to think about... just feels like when things are looking up, something comes crashing down... oh well... things will get way better... they always do!!