Tuesday, May 10, 2011

How do you know?

So after all this serial dating you can take away 2 things... 1. I'm exhausted and 2. I clearly have no idea when to stop. How do I know which guy "is the one"? I really like 2 of the 5. That's huge though... one of the unlucky three has already told me he loves me. That, ladies and gentlemen is a surefire way to send me packing... yes women do want romance and love but after 5 weeks and only 2 real dates are you serious? We don't even talk on the phone like that. Truthfully he doesn't even know me to love me. So again I'm like wtf? And the 2 keepers. They are truly keepers.  One has a little more going for him than the other but they are both tall, attractive, no kids, educated in great careers and looking for a serious girlfriend... so which and how do I choose?
Guy#1 is local, handsome, very crafty, very stable and fun he is clearly a gentleman, helps with the community as well as family. Very family oriented and very welcoming and warm...

Guy#2 lives slightly further than #1, has a good job, very very attractive but wants to take things slowly while searching for his girlfriend.. which is great...

Now guys 3-5 have each proven to be creepy or clingy or just way too cocky for me. Thus they are out... even mr. "I love you- but I don't make any time for you" cause truthfully I'm too young and fun to be waiting for him to make time for me. That leaves 1&2... I'm meeting 1 tomorrow after work he'll be cooking me dinner... that excites me mucho. So we'll see... I'm planning to see #2 on thurs I think.... I am glad I need not decide so quickly but optimistic that taking my time will allow the right guy to show himself.

Monday, May 2, 2011

date #2... better than number one...

went back out with the guy from the pappadeaux date.. went out for drinks at a cute bar thing I'd never been too... it was so fun... i got to see his playful and competitive side as we played bar video games and took a shot as part of the playful betting... so much fun.. he's great... beautiful smile... gorgeous teeth... am I sounding like a weirdo? for noticing teeth.. oh well.. anyways.. he smelt so good... like fantastic.. like hot guy... yes, like abercrombie... lol that place and hollister have cornered the market in hot boy fragrance... I promise he wrapped his strong arms around me to hug me goodbye and I almost fell out.... we stood outside the bar for a little while talking and joking, a couple of hugs later he was staring into my eyes.. I felt like such a dork... I have never been good at first kisses.. they always seem awkward and unplanned.. even uncomfortable or downright terrible... this was natural... comfortable.... it fit.... kinda fun to be excited by that... I love how cute it is.... bigger problem I created by the serial dating... one of the other guys messed up and told me he fell for me... that he loves me.... it scared me to my core... I don't know how to tell him the truth without sounding wrong... was I wrong? did i do this with the intention of hurting someone? I pray I did not.... I hate how selfish natured I can be.... a bigger problem is on the horizon and I need to figure it all out very quickly....